Thursday, January 14, 2010

Peaceful morning

I'm sitting here at my kitchen table, just having finished a garlic bagel, enjoying my coffee and the Avett Brothers. I feel peaceful and quiet. I feel like everything is okay in this moment.

I've been feeling really sick again, and I'm pretty sure it's my B vitamin deficiency coming back to bite me in the ass. Course of action at this point is to just start taking the vitamins again and wait out the sickness a little bit. I've done it before, there's no reason I can't do it again. I just don't really understand it, because the foods I most often eat (eggs, poultry, leafy greens, and whole grains) are the most B vitamin rich foods. It's just one of those wonderful side effects of birth control. "The hormones go toe to toe with your B vitamins, and the hormones always win." Or so the fine, fine doctor at Mac told me last year. She was the only one that was able to even GUESS what was wrong with me. And, after about a month or so of taking the vitamins everyday, I felt like myself again. Seeing as how one of the side effects of B vitamin deficiency is death, and I could feel myself getting slowly worse all the time, I'm happy one medical professional knew what the hell they were doing.

Cavan isn't sure how to handle it, because there's really nothing that can be done aside from the vitamins, so I think it's a little stressful for him.

Aside from the little bit of sickness going on, I'm happy. I'm doing okay.

Monday, January 11, 2010

So lazy

I haven't posted in what seems like forever (I didn't check the date before beginning this post today, so it very well could have been two months.

I could say that it's because I was so bust with work for the last few weeks. I could also say that I forget sometimes that I write in a blog. Another thing I could say is that I like to write in my handwritten journal sometimes for reasons of facility and privacy.

But I think the real reason is that I'm too lazy a lot of the time. I don't think I'm the type of person that gets a hell of a lot done on days off. Most times, I'm too tired to do too much. Other times, if Cavan is home too, I prefer to get our errands done and spend time with him over privately writing in my online blog. But I do think having my blog is important. It's somewhere that I can spout off about one thing or another, and not feel like I'm going to have to pay for it down the road.

Well, I'm in the process of spending my first full winter in Minnesota. Not a huge fan. Just have to throw that out there. I miss my family, my dog, and my home. BUT. I guess it's worth it. Cavan is worth it. He's really the only thing I have anchoring me here, but it's a good enough anchor that I have no urge to try and convince him to go away with me.

I don't mind my job, I just wish I got paid a lot more. I'm still looking for other jobs and applying here and there. Apparently, there are pretty much 1 in 10 odds that I'll get anything, but it was one of my New Year's resolutions. To get a better job. Something I can be proud of and somewhere that I'll feel like I'm moving in the right direction. My other resolution was to stop stressing out so much. Psh. Like that's going to happen.

Well, blog, Happy 2010. And I say it Two-thousand ten, not twenty ten.

I'm happy, I'm healthy, I'm loved, and I have a roof over my head. Things could be worse.